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Twinkle, twinkle, little star…

By not ruling at life 3 Comments

You may be wondering what exactly I am doing up at 3:18 in the morning.  So am I.  For some reason, I’ve been getting to sleep at 4 or 5 a.m. and staying in bed until noon or 1:00.  It’s been this way for at least a week now, becoming a bad habit that I can’t seem to break.

I’ve read entire books and done countless sit-ups and push-ups during the hours between midnight and 4 a.m. for the past few days — the times I should have been sleeping.  I’ve written stories, drawn pictures, tried on old clothes and bathing suits, cleaned my room, downloaded music, organized my birthday collection, completed crossword puzzles, and read fashion magazines, but I can not seem to bore myself into falling asleep.

Being awake at 3:25 in the morning is somewhat frustrating.  There’s not much to do at this hour, and definitely no one to talk to.  If this doesn’t stop soon, I’m going to have to start listening to lullabies and popping Tylenol PMs before bed until I get back to a normal sleep schedule.

(That little star down there is going to be bobbing up and down smiling — I’m not.)

Take away this snow and bring me a passionfruit iced tea.

By california, employment, new jersey, not ruling at life, weather 3 Comments

I’m not feeling very creative at the moment, but I feel like writing. I’m sure that won’t make for a very interesting journal entry, but oh well. I wish we had passionfruit iced tea in New Jersey.

I’m typing this on my brand new laptop.  You may be wondering how a jobless underachiever such as myself can afford a new laptop, but you already know the answer to that question – I can’t.  I am now $2,000 more in debt than I was this time last week.

However, I was rather thrifty and refrained from spending all my money shopping in California (which was insanely difficult considering the excellent shopping conditions – warm weather, lots of sales, tons of surf shops – in Orange County).

Returning to New Jersey from southern California was not an exciting experience for me.  When I boarded the plane yesterday afternoon, it was sunny and 75 degrees.   When I got off in New York, it was dark, windy, and 17 degrees with a wind chill well below zero.  My visit to San Diego definitely made up my mind about whether to ever live somewhere cold again.

Thank you to everyone who gave me advice after my somewhat-psychotic entry about my lack of decision-making capabilities.  My post-California plans for relocating are not finalized, but I will be driving to Las Vegas in February and playing it by ear from there.

I cannot wait to have an income of some sort again.  There are only 19 more days until I leave for Las Vegas, and since I’m staying there for at least a month, I will definitely find a job there – hopefully in a big hotel.

Until then, I’m still stuck here in Jersey with absolutely no hope of drinking any passionfruit iced tea…but, at least I can keep myself busy with packing and reading and playing on my new laptop.